北京第三中级法院的第25封"延审通知"是今年2月28日签发的，至今，一丝动静没有。这个月，重新翻阅了我们刚到美国不久父亲写来的信，真是感慨万端。他在1994年3月20日的信中有这样的内容：
现在国内主要是多方面的体制还不适应，我看至少要10年以上，能否理顺成真正的市场经济（今年解决了一个发国债券以弥补财政赤字）。腐败问题如此泛滥，根本原因在体制（如价格、利率等均双轨，外贸等多轨，到处有特权可钻）。要建成一个真正能在政治、经济、劳动、人事等方面，真正平等、民主而自由竞争的社会，谈何容易。有多少人就打不破家庭关、人情关。西方的舆论是第四个制衡力量，我们却一方面垄断设禁区，一方面是有偿新闻。现在还看不出经济与政治之间的矛盾死结如何解决。我的乐观还在经济决定政治，尽管道路漫长，这是中国特色，大家要忍着，慢慢来。Revolution与Evolution，一字之差，还是后者为好。只要经济发展下去，其他缓缓跟上（不跟是不行的），不再乱来（经济与政治）不再后退，真搞出特色（非"社"非资），我们的民族、国家还是有希望的。啰嗦说一大堆，就在希望你们"身在曹营心在汉"，为我们这个苦命的民族和国家做点有益之事。我也不知还能活几年，我也只能将自己过去经历之事理出个头绪，留给后人，知所鉴戒。今后的路到底怎样走，我是无能为力了。鉴往知来，我之执着回顾往事，伏案不已，也就是这么一点心愿。
父亲的这段文字令我落泪，他在生命的最后时日为"苦命的民族和国家"能做的，且做到了的，就是将自己一生经历之事记述下来。但是他最后的那一点心愿"留给后人，知所鉴戒"，却为他挚友习仲勋之子断不能容。不仅《李锐口述往事》一书绝不放行，李锐生前捐赠给美国胡佛研究所的所有资料都要悉数掠回、销毁。
父亲在这封信中说他对中国的前途是乐观的，原因在"经济决定政治"，"只要经济发展下去……我们的民族、国家还是有希望的。"但是中国的实践，中国进入世贸组织后世界的实践，证明了他判断的错误。经济决定不了政治，相反，它被政治制约。自共产党夺取政权之后，无论是毛时代，还是所谓改革开放后走到今天，中国的经济命脉始终牢牢掌控在共产党的手里。中国进入WTO后，共产党的一汤政治浑水又搅混了西方的清流。现在不但中国的道儿越走越黑，美国在中共的侵蚀下，也正在一个劲儿地往地狱滑，能否拉回来，是个大大的问号。父亲在信中说"西方的舆论是第四个制衡力量"。三十年后美国的现实与他当年的笃信已相去甚远，舆论制衡之力若如扶病。凡不符合执政党——民主党利益的声音盖被打压、封杀没商量，就连本党总统竞选人小罗伯特·肯尼迪亦不能幸免。
1995年5月30日，得知悌忠获得MBA硕士学位后，父亲来信：
收到5.15信，非常高兴，戴上MBA方帽子，希望能找到满意又能发挥专业特长的工作。还是工商管理好。我的中国情结比你们深，总希望你们有朝一日都能回国工作，到廿一世纪初，估计总得民主多一些吧。经济于政治绝然分开是不行的。我的身体活到廿一世纪初，大概问题不大。总还想圆这个梦。
廿一世纪已经过去23年，父亲的梦没有圆，那个"汉营"更是回不去了，进了国门，监狱的门就等着我了。我自以为遵循父望，"为苦命的民族和国家"所做的"有益之事"，在习老大的眼中都是对他权力的挑战和对他统治的破坏。在1959年庐山会议上，父亲对党、对国家的一片赤忠，换来的是20年的劳改和牢狱之灾，但他还是乐观展望中国的前途。我是绝望的，不认为自己在有生之年会等到三中院的开庭。但是我会记着父亲的话，"尽管道路漫长，这是中国特色，大家要忍着，慢慢来。"我等着中国北京三中院8月"成规"必须"墨守"的第26封"延审通知"，我则依然以矢志不渝的"跟进"应对。
2023年7月31日
Follow-up report on "Li Nanyang sued the Customs" (108)
——Unswerving Response
The 25th "Notice of Trial Continuing" was issued by the Beijing Third Intermediate Court on February 28 this year. So far, I heard no words from the judge. This month, I re-read my father's letters that he wrote to us at the time not long after we arrived in the United States, which brought me so much lament and thought. In the letter dated March 20, 1994, he wrote:
At present, the system in many aspects of our country is not yet adequate. I think it will take at least 10 years to straighten out a real market economy (this year, a national bond was issued to make up for the fiscal deficit). Corruption is so rampant, because the existing system is fundamentally wrong (such as dual control on pricing and taxation, multiple channels on foreign trade, etc., and loopholes are everywhere, privileges are obtained easily by the rich and power. It is not easy to build a society that is truly equal, democratic, and free to compete in politics, economy, job, personnel, and other aspects, and not to mention it is very hard for many people to break nepotism. In the Western, public opinion is the fourth force to balance powers, but we have a monopoly on setting up a criterion on what people can say and cannot say, while the media can be bought to report so called NEWS. It is still unclear how to resolve the dead knot of conflict between current economics and politics. I am optimistic because eventually the economy will determine a political system. Although the road is long, this is a unique phenomenon of China. We Chinese should be patient and take the change step by step. The difference between Revolution and Evolution is one letter only, the latter is better. As long as the economy continues to develop, other fields will slowly catch up (it's impossible not to follow), no more chaos (economics and politics) and no moving backwards again, and truly develops our distinguished way (neither "socialist" nor capitalist), our nation and country will still have hope. I've talked so much, as I hope that you will "be in America and have a heart in China" and do things useful for our nation and country, which has gone through such hardship. I don't know how many more years I am going to live, and I am sorting out what I have experienced in the past and leaving it to future generations to learn from, which is what I can only do now. I am powerless to make any impact in the direction that our country shall go. I have been obsessed with looking back, sitting at my desk all day long tirelessly, the only reason for doing so is to provide a mirror for people to avoid mistakes and make wise choices. That is just a little wish I have.
This passage from my father brought me to tears. What he could and did do for his nation and country that has been suffering so much, in the last leg of his lifetime journey was to leave his memoir. But his last humble wish is unacceptable to the son of his close friend Xi Zhongxun. Not only is the book Li Rui Oral History being banned forever, but also Xi wants to loot back all the materials that Li Rui donated to the Hoover Institution in the United State and destroy them all.
In the letter, my father said that he was optimistic about China's future because the economy determines politics and as long as the economy continues to develop...our nation and country still have hope. But what happened in China, and what happened in the world after China entered the WTO, all prove his belief was wrong. Economics does not determine politics, on the contrary, it is conditioned by politics. Since the CCP seized power, whether it was the Mao era or after the so-called Reform and Opening up to today, China's economic lifeline has always been firmly controlled by the hands of the Communist Party. After China entered the WTO, the political dirty water of the CCP has muddied the clear water of the West. Now not only is China's road getting darker and darker, but the United States is also slipping into hell under the erosion of the CCP. Whether it can be pulled back is big question mark.
In his letter, my father also said: "In the West, public opinion is the fourth force to balance powers." Thirty years later, the reality in the United States is far from what he had believed in back then, and the balancing force of public opinion is like a frail sick man. Voices that do not conform to the interests of the ruling party, the Democratic Party, are suppressed and blocked, even Robert Kennedy Jr., the party's presidential candidate, will not be spared.
On May 30, 1995, after learning that my husband had obtained an MBA degree, my father wrote us:
I was very happy to receive the 5.15 letter. Tizhong has put an MBA hat on, and I hope you will find a job that is satisfying and can fully fulfill your potential. Business Management is a good field. My love for China is much stronger than yours. I always hope that one day you all will return to China and work here. By the beginning of the 21st century, the situation in China must be better with more democracy. It is impossible to separate economics from politics. Based on my health, I feel confident that I will live through the early years of the 21st century. I still want to realize this dream (of seeing a better China).
Twenty-three years have passed in the 21st century, and my father's dream has not come true, and China is a country I can never go back to, where the prison is waiting for me. I thought I followed my father's wishes doing the things that will do good for China. But in the eyes of Xi Jinping, they are all challenges to his power and undermine his rule. At the Lushan Meeting in 1959, what my father got from his utter loyalty to the party and the country was 20 years of Chinese Gulag camp and Qincheng jail, but he still looked forward to the future of China optimistically. I am pessimistic, and I do not believe I would have my court date for suing Beijing Airport Customs in my lifetime. But I will always remember my father's words: although the road is long, this is a unique phenomenon of China. I should be patient and take the change step by step. I am waiting for the 26th "Continuing Notice" from the Beijing Third Intermediate Court in August, I will continue to respond with my unswerving "Follow-Up Report".
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